Uncertainty is looming in the distance; I know it because it taunts me.
Optimism whispers positive manifestation in my ear,
yet I can't resist to flirt with my doubts.
On the surface I am cracking, only slightly...
my condition is still repairable.
However, it's up to me to get fixed before I crumble.
"Get it together" my conscience resonates
as my physical state remains motionless.
Why do I procrastinate when it comes to my fate?
I know what I have to do.
No praying to the Gods, or begging to my peers will get me going.
I need to find the momentum within myself.
Bitch. You already know I love you and I believed in you when we were in carpool in the middle of TN.
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xoxo you know who.
I read this and I try to understand if you're fighting against yourself consciously or not.
ReplyDeleteYou realize the future isn't clear, but subconsciously you feel, that is to say "not by though", that something good lies ahead.
Yes consciously you check your optimism with doubt.
The damage inside you is surfacing and you feel it can get worse... unless you do something about it. You have a thought, but no action.
You question why you haven't taken action even though you KNOW what you have to do.
You acknowledge it's within you to heal yourself, you know what you have to do... but you keep thinking.
It seems you're afraid of action because of what may become of it, and you get wound up in thought delaying whatever idea you would act on.
thank you so much for taking the time to read this post. you really did get what I was trying to convey. Thank you.
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